I made a mistake

i tried to draw Amanda but i couldn't remember what she looked like so i had to get the last picture we took together from my freshman year of high school and i broke down while i was drawing her and i put the picture back and i hate how it came out but i can't get myself to rip it up because i don't think i can draw her any better and now i'm stuck

is... is this what if feels like to forget? because if it is, i fucking hate it. 

four years
four fucking years
don't believe them when they day it gets better
it doesn't 
not if you remember